Narrative

Ryan
The Jokes

3 years ago, I found myself laughing at a boy named Robert. His eyes were always red because he cried a lot. He played sports very bad, he could hardly throw the ball, but whenever the ball hit him, he cried. That why he was always the center of jokes and tricks for every one in the class.

When my friends have a bad embarrassing joke, they started to tease other people but mostly Robert. I never join them because I did not want people to hate me. I couldn’t believe that my best friend started to join the rest of the class, he was not like that, and he used to help others and was very friendly. That was why he and I were best friend. In PE, they put Robert into the girls’ team because he couldn’t run over a minute with out becoming overly tired. Every boy tried to hit him and trip him over, and every time he fell, people started to laugh. They asked me:
- Jo, wanna join us, he’s so dumb man.
I refused to them, but they kept asking over and over again, so one day, I get involved with them. One day and lunchtime, I saw Robert walking down the hall with his food tray. Jackson, one of the bad boys told me to put marble on the floor. I did what he told, I thought it was harmless. Robert stepped on the marbles and fell down; he threw his tray up in the air and foods spilled it all over his body. The room suddenly broke out with laughter; some of the kids go to my table and thanked me for the good jokes, I felt glad but something in me make me could not laugh. The feeling of people enjoy the thing that I did made me feel alive and I forgot all about the shame of making fun of others, and I became one of the bad boys. That feeling kept me doing bad stuffs more and more but I still cannot laugh at my own jokes, I just put a fake smiles. Students’ tears of shame appeared everywhere we went because my friends and I made them embarrassed by our jokes and tricks. Everyday I tried to think of new tricks. My friends started to avoid me and the few friends that I have now is a group of bullies. Even my best friend didn’t talk to me any more, the last time we spoke, he told me:
- Leave me alone, you’re not my friend, you changed now! Go away.
After I heard him said that, I punched the wall as hard as I can but my heart felt like it was stabbing itself with a knife. In the sorrow, I thought of a brilliant trick, I talked to with my friends and they liked it. After PE, Robert went showering; we took all of his clothes and ran away. After he is done, he realized that all of his clothes were gone; he wrapped himself in a towel and ran to find his clothes. I heard laughter everywhere he went, and me too, I found myself laughing at him. He started to cry, I looked at him and some thing inside of me made me thought about my past, I trembled when I realized that I was staring at my self, 2 years ago. I was just like him a new kid, first entered the school. 2 years ago, I got bullied a lot and my eyes were always also full with tears. My head started to spin and I had to lean on the wall for not to fall down. All of the bad memories started to fly back into my head, I could hardly think, I closed my eyes and tears fell down. Now I realized that I changed into a person that I promised my self I would never be one, I was so frightened of myself. I thought about all the things that I had done throughout the year and I felt paralyzed when I thought of Robert’s face. I didn’t know how to undo what I did. That night I couldn’t sleep, every thing around me became a mess. My face turned red, I don’t know that I am mad or a shame of myself, I thought it both. I tried to count how many friends that I have left again and again but 1 time, 2 times, 3 times the number still stay the same, zero. Every one now look at me with red eyes, weren’t because of tears, it was because of their anger for me. Even to bad boys, they didn’t play with me anymore. I have nothing left; then I thought of Robert. I started to be friendly with him, helped him with his weakness, and protect him from the jokes and tricks of others. I tried to be a person I wanted to be, and try my best to get my friends back. After seeing me protected Robert, people don’t tease him anymore and some started to talk with me again. I started to fell warmth inside my heart, it did not stabbing itself anymore. I like the feelings of having friends; they can help me get through everything.
I became a person I want to be. To me, friendship is the best thing on the world to me. When I falls down, I can always trust my friend to help me back up. Mostly in the relationship problem, it is very hard with out friends to help me to get back up. If I have no friend, I have to do everything by myself, although working with a group it is more efficient then individual. Through this situation, I learn a precious lesson that being friendly is the most important thing to keep you friendship sustainable.